make it safe for me.

actual my head is full of worry about my life.
I'm crying in my mind, and I wanna say " no way, I 'm enough !!".
I  always take care myself, and sometimes I take care someone.
but I feel "someone destroy the way".


why I feel confuse?.
so I understand that the japanese society is like middle age world. 


I have a plan for me.
it is refuge to europe. 
it  maybe shapes only a journey,
I need distance from japanese society.

I never want say about japanese darkness anymore.
and I must study language for me.
how do I make my life?

answer is made by my head, body, and time, my act.